Tag: Author of pain poetry

AOP, Poetry

I Can Only Speak

Author of pain

My heart is weak, my soul is deep with words I can speak,

But would you listen, understand or even believe?

So I prefer to show you in actions,

Take you on a journey of my thoughts

So when suits are spoken

Then the walls are broken

And you believe in my love.

Because my heart is weak but my soul is deep,

With words I can only speak.

AOP, Poetry

Scars

Author of pain

All over my skin, lies marks that I made.
When I was so low, I cut with a blade
To punish myself for being a mess
People call me crazy, for punishing myself that way.
But what these people don’t know is that,
Seeing these scars left on my skin in the future
Will always make me remember that
I was once in a place of no rest.
Though, I feel guilty inside for leaving this scars
Later, I will see and remember that I was so broken and lonely
Seeing this scars in the future, will push me to help those
Who are also going through what I am going through now
Seeing this scars will make them believe that I survived so much trauma
And they can also do it.
Seeing these scars will make them stand with me in my fight against
Trauma and depression.
These scars will serve as an inspiration to them, that I was once depressed
And so weak.
But now, I am free and strong.
So I ask you to stand with me and fight,
To show all these demons what they’re doing is not
Right.
You will win the battle of good versus bad.
You are still alive and are no longer sad.
So when the people see me making these wounds on my skin
That leaves scars behind,
They should not insult but praise me
Because even as I was weak, I was still strong inside.
Here on my skin lies several Marks of Survival.

DEDICATED TO ALL THOSE WHO ARE GOING THROUGH DEPRESSION

AOP, Poetry

Compulsion

Author of pain

What kind of compulsion is this?
When we first met, I never thought we would become
Such good friends. I never thought that you would mean
So much to me. I never thought that I would love you
So freaking much. I never thought I would be so scared to
Tell you how I feel. Because, when two soulmates meet,
They are meant to be together, right?
But sometimes, things doesn’t go the easy way.
Maybe its just me and my paranoid mind, but
I want you so badly, I would take all the stars from the sky,
Just for you.
I don’t want to loose you, even though we are not together,
But am scared of telling you how I feel, I am scared of
Rejection. I am scared of ruining our friendship,
But the thought of not having you by my side is insane,
The thought of not seeing your smile is crazy,
The thought of not feeling your skin on mine is painful.
Its so hard to be divided. One side of me want to tell you
How I feel, but is scared of rejection. And there’s the other side
Suffering from not telling you, because it doesn’t want to ruin our friendship. Its happy with the way we are currently.

Which one is the best for me?
I cannot live without you now, what’s my existence without
You? If I get separated from you, then I’ll be separated from
Myself, because its only you now. You’re my life now.
You are my peace and also my pain.
I have always been trying to impress you, hoping you will
Make the first move.
I am done trying to impress you, but at the same time,
I can’t give up on you, I don’t want to give up
On us, because we deserve a chance.
Even though I don’t know where we stand now, I still
Believe that one day, we will get a chance to be together, and
Make each other happy. Because, I have never and will never
Care for anybody as I have cared for you.
Till the day comes, you will always continue to be in my mind.
Ave always loved you then, I love you now, and I will love you
Forever.