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This includes Author of pain’s original poetry.
My heart is weak, my soul is deep with words I can speak,
But would you listen, understand or even believe?
So I prefer to show you in actions,
Take you on a journey of my thoughts
So when suits are spoken
Then the walls are broken
And you believe in my love.
Because my heart is weak but my soul is deep,
With words I can only speak.
All over my skin, lies marks that I made.
When I was so low, I cut with a blade
To punish myself for being a mess
People call me crazy, for punishing myself that way.
But what these people don’t know is that,
Seeing these scars left on my skin in the future
Will always make me remember that
I was once in a place of no rest.
Though, I feel guilty inside for leaving this scars
Later, I will see and remember that I was so broken and lonely
Seeing this scars in the future, will push me to help those
Who are also going through what I am going through now
Seeing this scars will make them believe that I survived so much trauma
And they can also do it.
Seeing these scars will make them stand with me in my fight against
Trauma and depression.
These scars will serve as an inspiration to them, that I was once depressed
And so weak.
But now, I am free and strong.
So I ask you to stand with me and fight,
To show all these demons what they’re doing is not
Right.
You will win the battle of good versus bad.
You are still alive and are no longer sad.
So when the people see me making these wounds on my skin
That leaves scars behind,
They should not insult but praise me
Because even as I was weak, I was still strong inside.
Here on my skin lies several Marks of Survival.
DEDICATED TO ALL THOSE WHO ARE GOING THROUGH DEPRESSION
What kind of compulsion is this?
When we first met, I never thought we would become
Such good friends. I never thought that you would mean
So much to me. I never thought that I would love you
So freaking much. I never thought I would be so scared to
Tell you how I feel. Because, when two soulmates meet,
They are meant to be together, right?
But sometimes, things doesn’t go the easy way.
Maybe its just me and my paranoid mind, but
I want you so badly, I would take all the stars from the sky,
Just for you.
I don’t want to loose you, even though we are not together,
But am scared of telling you how I feel, I am scared of
Rejection. I am scared of ruining our friendship,
But the thought of not having you by my side is insane,
The thought of not seeing your smile is crazy,
The thought of not feeling your skin on mine is painful.
Its so hard to be divided. One side of me want to tell you
How I feel, but is scared of rejection. And there’s the other side
Suffering from not telling you, because it doesn’t want to ruin our friendship. Its happy with the way we are currently.
Which one is the best for me?
I cannot live without you now, what’s my existence without
You? If I get separated from you, then I’ll be separated from
Myself, because its only you now. You’re my life now.
You are my peace and also my pain.
I have always been trying to impress you, hoping you will
Make the first move.
I am done trying to impress you, but at the same time,
I can’t give up on you, I don’t want to give up
On us, because we deserve a chance.
Even though I don’t know where we stand now, I still
Believe that one day, we will get a chance to be together, and
Make each other happy. Because, I have never and will never
Care for anybody as I have cared for you.
Till the day comes, you will always continue to be in my mind.
Ave always loved you then, I love you now, and I will love you
Forever.
I Still remember the days spent with you
When the love was so pure
Even though it was one sided
Everything was so bright.
Why did I get separated from you
Why did I hide from you
I should have confessed my love to you earlier
Then maybe things might have worked out
And i wouldn’t be separated from you
No matter our distance.
I always loved you silently
And when I confessed my love for you
You left me with emotions of blue
And now I’ll miss you with
Silent tears,
Now all I can see is pain and tears in vain
No happiness and just the bane
It’s love lost for me.
And this will be the end.
Oh God, have pity on me.
Oh God, I’m ready to make sacrifices for your love.
Oh God, please help me.
Oh God, only your mercy and love can set me free.
I’ll erase and sacrifice my pride for your love,
I am also ready to sacrifice my existence for your mercy,
Oh God, your love and mercy is all I ask for.
Oh God, have pity on me.
My life is falling apart,
Oh God, only your love and mercy can help me now.
Give me a few moments of closeness to you,
I will always be a beggar for your mercy,
Please give me a few moments of relief,
Everyone sacrifices for what they want,
Your love and mercy is what I want,
I’ll erase and sacrifice my pride for your love,
I’ll erase and sacrifice my existence for your mercy.
Not a single sin do we commit without your knowledge,
There is no tomorrow without you,
Oh God, without your love and mercy.
My heart will become like a stone,
There will be no movement in it,
Oh God, I’ll sacrifice my existence for your mercy.
If the only way to get your mercy,
Is by sacrificing my existence
Then I’ll do it.
Because we have to make sacrifices at some point,
And I don’t see the point of living without your
Love And Mercy.
This piece is titled silence. “Silence is the most powerful and loudest form of screaming, but not all have the ability to hear it” – Author Of Pain.
When you’re suffering, it’s natural to want to talk to someone about your problems. Everyone needs a listening ear sometimes. When you can’t find someone to talk to, it can be painful. Understandably, you would want to vent to a friend or loved one about what you’re experiencing. As much as others care, you are the one who ultimately has to handle your challenges. That might sound scary but think of it as an empowering statement. You have the tools to change your life for the better. That doesn’t mean you can’t ask for help and you can.
How do you cope when you have problems? The natural instinct is to find someone to talk about your problems with, but that’s not always possible. If you could let loose about your issues who would tell? Naturally, you talk to friends and family. In addition to confiding in the people close to you, there are other ways to find support. Going to counseling or seeing an online therapist can help you when you’re suffering. Your friend isn’t your therapist. It’s essential to be careful when you’re asking for support from those close to you. There’s a balance between being a supportive friend and acting like someone’s counselor. You want a friend to be just that, a friend. A therapist, on the other hand, is a dedicated mental health professional whose job it is to care for you. They want to help you navigate your problems. Many people in your position turn to mental health professionals to talk about their issues. Therapy helps people figure out how to get through tough times. A conversation can make a difference in helping someone feel less alone and more supported in recovering from anxiety and depression. Don’t underestimate the importance of just ‘being there’.
The best we can be friends to eachother and the best way to help prevent suicide, depression, anxiety and loneliness is by possessing three important qualities which are;
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