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The best way to train a child is by always making them happy.
If lonely is a taste, then it’s all that I’m tasting
Scars
All over my skin, lies marks that I made.
When I was so low, I cut with a blade
To punish myself for being a mess
People call me crazy, for punishing myself that way.
But what these people don’t know is that,
Seeing these scars left on my skin in the future
Will always make me remember that
I was once in a place of no rest.
Though, I feel guilty inside for leaving this scars
Later, I will see and remember that I was so broken and lonely
Seeing this scars in the future, will push me to help those
Who are also going through what I am going through now
Seeing this scars will make them believe that I survived so much trauma
And they can also do it.
Seeing these scars will make them stand with me in my fight against
Trauma and depression.
These scars will serve as an inspiration to them, that I was once depressed
And so weak.
But now, I am free and strong.
So I ask you to stand with me and fight,
To show all these demons what they’re doing is not
Right.
You will win the battle of good versus bad.
You are still alive and are no longer sad.
So when the people see me making these wounds on my skin
That leaves scars behind,
They should not insult but praise me
Because even as I was weak, I was still strong inside.
Here on my skin lies several Marks of Survival.
DEDICATED TO ALL THOSE WHO ARE GOING THROUGH DEPRESSION
Compulsion
What kind of compulsion is this?
When we first met, I never thought we would become
Such good friends. I never thought that you would mean
So much to me. I never thought that I would love you
So freaking much. I never thought I would be so scared to
Tell you how I feel. Because, when two soulmates meet,
They are meant to be together, right?
But sometimes, things doesn’t go the easy way.
Maybe its just me and my paranoid mind, but
I want you so badly, I would take all the stars from the sky,
Just for you.
I don’t want to loose you, even though we are not together,
But am scared of telling you how I feel, I am scared of
Rejection. I am scared of ruining our friendship,
But the thought of not having you by my side is insane,
The thought of not seeing your smile is crazy,
The thought of not feeling your skin on mine is painful.
Its so hard to be divided. One side of me want to tell you
How I feel, but is scared of rejection. And there’s the other side
Suffering from not telling you, because it doesn’t want to ruin our friendship. Its happy with the way we are currently.
Which one is the best for me?
I cannot live without you now, what’s my existence without
You? If I get separated from you, then I’ll be separated from
Myself, because its only you now. You’re my life now.
You are my peace and also my pain.
I have always been trying to impress you, hoping you will
Make the first move.
I am done trying to impress you, but at the same time,
I can’t give up on you, I don’t want to give up
On us, because we deserve a chance.
Even though I don’t know where we stand now, I still
Believe that one day, we will get a chance to be together, and
Make each other happy. Because, I have never and will never
Care for anybody as I have cared for you.
Till the day comes, you will always continue to be in my mind.
Ave always loved you then, I love you now, and I will love you
Forever.
The Homeless Almajiri
God is real
The meaning of life is to find your gift. The purpose of life is to give it away.
Sometimes in life, we get some gifts that feels so special to us. This gifts could be form of a person, place, or thing, but in the end, we find out that that special gift was never meant for us. In as much as it pains to let it go, we just have to let it go. Someone, something or someplace else needs that gift more than us. All we can do is to pray to God that he brings our own gift that’s truly meant for us.
The End Of Love
I Still remember the days spent with you
When the love was so pure
Even though it was one sided
Everything was so bright.
Why did I get separated from you
Why did I hide from you
I should have confessed my love to you earlier
Then maybe things might have worked out
And i wouldn’t be separated from you
No matter our distance.
I always loved you silently
And when I confessed my love for you
You left me with emotions of blue
And now I’ll miss you with
Silent tears,
Now all I can see is pain and tears in vain
No happiness and just the bane
It’s love lost for me.
And this will be the end.
The Perfect Obsession By Preacher
Had i known
I never would have kissed you that night
Had i known
I never would have hold you so tight
I put on my forefather’s courage that night and said those three angelic words to you.
I don’t regret my action for its a moment i would love to relive
I just never knew my heart would never beat the same thereafter.
My innocent heart synced to your movements
The farther you go, the more painful it hurts.
You are the only living cure to this sickness!
I need a dose of you every now and then. No buts!
I feel your love deep in my soul
Locked in your love abyss. An Endless pit as dark as coal!
You control my dreams without a console
Creating Beautiful memories of us mixed with fear of losing you.
Fear and happiness. Theme of my daily dreams!
A perfect obsession this is!
I love you when you call me those beautiful names
I love you when you play with my little beards
I love you when you smile, frown, and sigh
It amazes me how you still look beautiful when you cry
And how your smile makes the wind blow faster.
If love is a riddle, I’d solve it just for you
If love is a work of art, I’d become your artist.
I never knew perfection could take a human form untill i met you.
My love for you is divine. No doubt
When love become too deep it turns into something else
Madness of the heart it is. Nothing else.
My heart is sick!
but i only want a dose of you; not the total cure
For i may be trapped in the land where lover’s never return.
But it’s also a paradise i will always adore.
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Balogun Abdulqayyum
Preacher
Can you handle me? By Fumzy_fingers
I’m a bag of a lovely mess
Can you handle me?
I am volatile
The wind throttling
I’m the breeze slowly blowing
An Ash of my past scars
Coal of my present scars
Coal of my present wounds
Fire for my future laughter
I’m a being undiscovered
A secret undisclosed
Yet I am me
I’m the raging storm
Yet your calming sea
I’m a whole lot you don’t see
Yet that which you see is me
Or maybe you will never really see me
So I ask again
Can you handle me?
The Mercy Of God
Oh God, have pity on me.
Oh God, I’m ready to make sacrifices for your love.
Oh God, please help me.
Oh God, only your mercy and love can set me free.
I’ll erase and sacrifice my pride for your love,
I am also ready to sacrifice my existence for your mercy,
Oh God, your love and mercy is all I ask for.
Oh God, have pity on me.
My life is falling apart,
Oh God, only your love and mercy can help me now.
Give me a few moments of closeness to you,
I will always be a beggar for your mercy,
Please give me a few moments of relief,
Everyone sacrifices for what they want,
Your love and mercy is what I want,
I’ll erase and sacrifice my pride for your love,
I’ll erase and sacrifice my existence for your mercy.
Not a single sin do we commit without your knowledge,
There is no tomorrow without you,
Oh God, without your love and mercy.
My heart will become like a stone,
There will be no movement in it,
Oh God, I’ll sacrifice my existence for your mercy.
If the only way to get your mercy,
Is by sacrificing my existence
Then I’ll do it.
Because we have to make sacrifices at some point,
And I don’t see the point of living without your
Love And Mercy.
Don’t let anybody tell you who to be or write your narrative.
To be successful in life, you have to be yourself. Do not let other people tell you how to live and also do not try to copy others because what works for me might not work for you.
Everybody’s got something to say about what you do. People you know, people you love, people you hate. Even people you’ve never met. They tell you what to do, who to be, and how to live. But nobody who tells you what to do actually knows what’s best for you. So stop listening to them. People don’t know you as well as they think they know you. No matter how long you’ve known a person, they don’t know the real you. They know the version you choose to share with them which might be 80% of yourself, but it’s never 100%. The advice they give you can only be as successful as the amount they know about you — the real you. Even people with the best intentions are influenced by their own desires. They want you to be happy and successful, but in a way that fits their own definition of those terms. That definition may not match your own. The advice people give you is based on what they would do in a similar situation. But what they would do is based on who they are, not who YOU are. Their intentions may be genuine, but the reasoning is often misaligned. Other people may love you so much the way you are that they fear your growth may impact your relationship with them. But it’s in your best interest to evolve into the person you want to become and the life you want to have. Beware the person who fears your evolution.
You are the expert on you. Nobody can know what’s best for you better than you can so trust your instincts, stop listening to others, and own your decisions. You’ll be glad you did. One of the best ways to build confidence in your decision making is to broaden your expertise and deepen your knowledge about how the world works.
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